The Final Call

Mix it, shake it... The blood won’t drain...

Flip it, make it but it won’t stay...

This is the final call,

World, dream, and pain I ignored it all...

Working to get your attention,

I can’t keep up & you won’t back

Falling apart, crawling away from my salvation,

I am losing the count of my stack.

And this is the final call, to take the plunge

Or take the fall.

I have seen the darker shade of light

Care in our fights,

Lost trails of our sights;

But it won’t turn you...

Even though i chase the stars

It still won’t prove,

If only, i could hold you,

Hold you for a while

I can’t get away

From what we created,

Magic, miracle, the only reason to smile!

I never called for loneliness

Who ask for sadness?

I never thought it would go down,

Flirt kissed affairs, liquors filled with lust,

Drink all i must & hit the ground,

But I can’t dig the deeper love!!

Walls are closing in...

And isn't this the final call, to take the plunge

Or take the fall?

Maybe for the last time,

I give it to you,

Only for the last time I give my all.

It's OVER!!

I don't want to look for people anymore..
Cuz all I see is so many faces,
Different faces..with similar eyes..
Staring at me.
Counting my bones through the flesh.
And I, looking back at them..with fire to burn them down!!
But I can't for too long..
They are zillions of pair in my opposition!

I am broken..
I can't stay sober..
It's hard to move on..
I am scared to tell myself,
That it's OVER.

All the men I dated..
I turn and see..
I feel.. Maybe,
I was wasted..
Had enough for the night..
To risk my life,
Looking for a home..
A place to rest,
A place to breathe,
Cz it hurts to sleep alone.

A man to love..
To teach me to live.
I beat my heart like I beat the drums,
I stopped judging long back,
Its getting colder.. With every step I take..
My heart is broken..
My heart is numb.
I pray.. I say..your name..
I crawl.. I crave..for the love game..
Down on my knees.. On the bathroom floor..
Warm water touching my feet..
But too frozen to reach the door.

Oh I am broken..
I can't stay sober..
It's hard to move on..
I am scared to tell myself
That its over.

My secret to smile..
To walk for a mile,
I get chills, I stand still..
To cut.. To slit..
I twist the neck..
Choked..i can't yell..
I try.. I cry..
Oh what the heck..

It aches in the fist size,
I am broken..
I can't stay sober..
You know it's hard to move on..
I am scared to tell myself,
That it's OVER.

The Purple Scarf...

Strawberry eyed he smiled at me..
With all the twinkle, he passed me by,,
his breath gave me tinkle,,
stomach had butterflies...

Oh those dimpled cheek fascinates me..
My kissable lips repeat your name,
while I dries my eyes under the godly oak tree...

His rolled sleeves n loosened collar drives me crazy,
And he know, I saw him smiling at me,
As he see me from the corner f his eyes.
Oh dat truth in his baby-like look,,
All sane, no lies.

I don't want to bother you,
But you attract my interest,, 
I love a boy who doesn't even know what love is....
Hell my friends tease me with the ghost-face,
But I know my abilities.

So I let it pass knowing its just mere waste f time,, 
Feelings won't soothe n u won't understand...
How love looks like,,
It's like You &  your hand in my hand.

I chase you & your presence...
And even My lavender essence doesn't distract your sense,,
I do my hair,, look d best but all in vein,
because you don't give a damn.

So here I set it loose..
And I keep this love filled heart which I may reuse!!

I look down at the sea,
Where I first saw you & I close my eyes,
cuz I'v got love all over me,
But I don't want to get mad in your love...
I close my eyes & set u free, cuz i had enough......


..... AND .....

And You came, held me from behind,,
To my total surprise.. You said, you love me,
And I stood speechless, motionless as you smelt my lavender fragrance,,
'I Love U since u dropped this,' he whispered,,
And my shadow stood like a dwarf,
when he handed me, my 'purple scarf' !!

I kiss my wounds away !!

So you've found d knife..

With which you ended my heart’ life..

Wounds that you have given will never fade..

Now I remember what they all said!!

Stay away from the fire

Cuz burning it it's nature

You can’t expect truth from a liar..

So I blame myself for my failure

What was that you wanted..

You had nothing but you falsely flaunted!!

But it’s high time,,

I should find a reason to start again

I am not the bearer of the pain…

So I'm setting the weather..

To make myself feel better

I kiss my wounds away,,

I won’t let it sway,,

Never this time or ever repeat..

One thing I've learned…

Hurt heart don't fall for second time sweet!!

You've turned to stone

Or to my surprise.. you never had that feeling,,

And I thought you were just pretending!!

Who’d know where I will be tomorrow??

So people don't tell me what is to be done..

Cuz I need my time to come out of this sorrow..

I know you like me in tears..

But I can’t let you win,,

I’ll let go my fears..

Can’t pay for your sins!!

You did what you had to..

Now there's no place in my head for you..

But it’s high time,,

I should find a reason to start again

I am not the bearer of the pain…

So I'm setting the weather..

To make myself feel better

I kiss my wounds away,,

I won’t let it sway,,                                                              

Never this time or ever repeat..

One thing I've learned…

Hurt heart don't fall for second time sweet!!

And now you say..

‘twas me who did the damage…

But your poker face won’t let anybody ever know,,

You held me slaved in your rib-cage!!

And the bones you broke will never fix..

Now I'm left alone,, broken and hurt in a dark room,,

With cemented paint-less walls and some thick bricks!!

There's nothing that I can hold..

Fingers crippled & lifeless…

Waiting somebody to tell me it’s my turn,,

My time to set the feelings I kept suppressed..

AND it’s high time,,

I should find a reason to start again

M not d bearer of the pain…

So I'm setting the weather..

To make myself feel better

I kiss my wounds away,,

I won’t let it sway,,                                                              

Never dis time or ever repeat..

One thing I've learned…

Hurt heart don't fall for second time sweet!!

Don't let it break your heart!!

Cry Cry Cry
         Let it kill you
Fly Fly Fly
      Don't let your spirit die
Smile Smile a broader Smile
       Bend your lips up
       Let them part..
But when your time's up,
And you fall short of tears..
Breathe, Don't let it break your heart!

So what you couldn't get
        what you wished for?
So what you have been hurt before?
Your tainted heart goes cold
Lying on the floor..
   It bleeds a darker shade
   It bleeds to death..
And he pass you by..
Carelessly walks over instead.

Darling, His time's up
      Your tears won't be enough
You know he's the aim,
And you are the dart..
So breathe,
       Oh just breathe..
Don't let it break your heart!

Take the teachings,
                  Call it learning,
Don't distance yourself
                And throw your happiness..
Give him his piece,
          Return him his worthless part..
All you have to do is Breathe,
Oh breathe..
Don't You let it break your precious HEART !!

Butterfly

You are the heart that's beating inside me...

I was like a butterfly..

Everybody wanted to catch me,,

Play with me... But u set me free.. Caressed me..

Though my love is red.. I only cud fly away..

But u gave me home.. & made me stay.

U didn't break my wings..

U le'me sing. The song of my life.........

Though it had no rhyme but u enjoyed every word i sang..

As dis world' beats were more of a clang..

U held me high.. Helped me breathe,,

its not that want to say goodbye..

Never ever that i want to leave.. Just li'l love-shy.

And now its time.. I can sleep in your arms..

But these tears r rolling down.. I feel u in every breath.....

I will love you to the day I die.. I'll never turn my back on u..

I crave for your charm.. U make me smile..

No frown.. I dun fear death,, because ain't no word i said z a lie.

I can sleep.. No pain,,

u hold me so warm like winter sun covers the trees..

Dis world is beautiful with you.. Else all is insane.

I learned my lessons..

But now m luzing my patience..

N my colors are fading..

Still u take my face in your hands.. Kiss my fragile wings,, u'v kept your hand on my heart..

These broken dreams dat u'v mend.

And i feel real..

Nobody can ever comfort me like the way u heal.

Though my Love is red.. But my love is true......

And believe me cuz i really love you.

Soon I’ll be gone!!

When I look up in d sky.. I find it clear & calling my name..
And m tired of dreaming… need to breathe,, wana taste d reality !!
‘Hope’ had everything to do with my faith cuz I’ve been waitng for everything to be same.
Sooo m off to sleep.. Tonight,, dun b sad u’ll see me shining with those bright stars…….
M off to sleeeep alone……………and soon I’ll be gone!!

I can’t open my eyes; these lights are blinding me…
M loosing my strength,, that zest to carry on !!
All this while, I’ve been standing strong, firmly sticking to d ground.
But now ‘m trembling baby.. Every minute ‘m loosing me.. it feels so lonely..
These walls are closing in.. I remember this lazy yawn….
M off to sleep u knw……….....and soon I’ll be gone!!

I see out from my window,,, These empty fields…with breeze making love to its lush green grass.
These winds are looking for me but m waiting for u.. Can u hear my call cuz I need u to hold!!
Else one fine day it’ll all be in my embrace that seems too crass (for now)
Our love, our sin, our cry…
U alone, u alone and no-one else… u n me were meant to be…
I will love u till the day I die.
Its weak, my heart, and our dreams’ like a delicate fawn……..
Frozen in my bed.. I sleep alone………………and soon I’ll be gone!!

Wicked games of my insanity are pushing me away..
Arms that hold me will be empty... that warm chest on which lies my body will only have d sense of my soul & unforgettable fragrance,, Believe u me its no ignorance!
Your long bottled-neck that had marks of my lips will fade away n d jittery feeling it gave with evry touch would disappear too.
I stare as u lie with ur heart open for mine..
Aah now I can’t sleep, but m alone...………. Just the last breath and soon I’ll be gone!